Mother's Death Still Haunts Madonna

Pop legend Madonna has revealed that her mother's death still haunts her. The singer's friends and husband Guy Ritchie try their best to keep her calm but she insists that she'll never be able to change - because of the unforgettable past.

Madonna's mother died of breast cancer at the age of 30 in 1963, when her daughter was just five years old. And the pop star thinks that the pain she suffered at such a tender age is responsible for her controlling, disciplinarian nature.

"I've always been this way. I can't help it. Guy tells me to loosen up, my friends do, too, but I can't. It's entirely a product of my childhood," Contactmusic quoted Madonna, as saying. "I have dealt with a lot of my demons, but the biggest one is still to do with my mother dying when I was young. That is still with me in many ways."

"As a child I had no control. I felt the world around me was chaotic and I needed some control. That's when the self-discipline started. It was my way of survival," she added.